I think this is going to be the first happy post I've made in a long time. I think I'm in a good place now, and it only took 6 months. I see the light at the end of the tunnel. Yes, my father is still sick. Yes, I miss home. Yes, I'm stressed out from time to time, but it's all looking up. I'm in a developing relationship, I'm independent, I'm working toward a real goal, and I feel like I'm in a fulfilling line of work (as much as I bitch about it). By no means does this mean that I'm having an easy time, but I think that's all part of the life. If anything comes too easy then it isn't worth anything. Maybe this has something to do with my impending move back to the States. I've already been here for 6 months. A short time in the grand scheme of things, but significant nonetheless. In any case, it's been an uphill climb since I've arrived in the country. I hope that things start coasting from here. So until I get back, cheers.
To preface this discussion, I will start with a little background. Korea runs on buses and subways. Driving around is tedious and often prelude to self-mutilation. There is too much traffic, not enough space, and parking is like getting water in the 7th circle of hell, impossible. Anyway, I was on the bus this morning and the bus driver had the radio on. Some lady had written to the station. The DJ was reading this letter and it was heartbreaking. Apparently, her ex-husband (before the "ex" was a factor) was cheating on her. Their marriage had gone sour and the last year of it was hell apparently. This happened about two years ago and she started the letter by explaining that they were divorced and he had ended up marrying the girl he was sleeping with. She said it took two years to realize what she had done to him. They were in constant fights, she was vocally abusive, and from what the woman wrote, she said that she now knew why their marriage fell apart. She began talking about all the fond memories she had. She apologized to him for driving him away even tho he treated her like a queen. She says she didn't blame him and that everything was her fault...
I guess it was admirable for her to write to the radio station, but if she were really sorry shouldn't she have written the guy? And what part of this situation would be acceptable for airing on public radio? Did she think if she got this off her chest to the world (but not him) it would absolve her somehow? I don't know. I'm not a fan of people airing business about other individuals, especially when it's something as sensitive as affairs and divorce. I will say one thing, she has balls.
This morning I was up until 4 playing games. Yes, I am 25 and yes, I play games. Despite what some individuals (females) tell me, in no way shape or form is this a sign of immaturity. I won't sit here and try to justify through logic why this is the case, I will just illustrate by example... Personally, I feel like watching reality shows and frivolous fantasies like Sex in the City are immature. You sit there, gobbling up the fad of the moment, watching sinfully shallow individuals, and people who don't know the real world, crying and bitching about ridiculous, provincial frivolities like "oh, do you think he likes me?" and "don't you think this purse is so wonderful".
At the same time, to impose my own views on what YOU enjoy to do in your free time is ridiculous. To each his/her own. So, I will play my games to relax and you will watch shallow TV to relax. It's how it is and how it will be. x)
By the way, to all you girls/guys addicted to shallow TV, I have your cure, Tom Clancy's End War. A smart techno-thriller novel turned video game available on PS3, Xbox360, and the PC. Try it and prepare to be amazed. x)
